Poems: Ordinary Dungeon

 

Ordinary Dungeon

 

angry in the hideout,

wrestling protocols,

and suffering for my failure,

why defuse this faith,

contrary to vision though it is?

 

to debunk fear

and rationalize escape,

such hooks of heretical logic

drag the heart punctured deeper,

 

until truth asserts a terrible price,

while excuses whipsaw from this broken mouth,

faster than the prattle

of inexcusable commercials.

 

we all toadeat before the curse:

god exists, hallelujah,  

to sting, bark, and segregate,

to outfox us with ecclesiastic sanctions.

 

i try, try, try

 

to improvise a lack of manners,

but the leap for deviance feels always fake,

and i fall back,

 

into this ordinary dungeon,

knowing i can tantrum only so far,

with an authorized smile.

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9/9  "while" replaces "and" (clarity issue)