Poem: Back Too Soon

 

Back Too Soon

 

whether god or dog

savored my body or song,

they had enough to judge me

before i even believed.

 

that part of me

which concocted desire

made me a stranger

in my own unfaithful brain.

 

it seemed as if the universe

could assume any sort of sex.

any sort of sun or galaxy

could orbit any X or Y

 

or you.

 

to be honest,

i inclined that way,

a trajectory of predestined flesh.

like everybody else,

like the first prokaryote,

i was a swift faulty wish. 

a remote controlled blaze.

 

but it was you.

 

through all my lusting, stripping,

animalistic travels,

i found only your one special

longstanding, heart-hugging moon.

 

despite our cloak of magetism, despite

the vortices of passion

which forever whirled us wild and up

and up and up,

it was a brutal carnal gambit.

 

as much as we were part of something

on the social chessboard

of sacrifice and fuck,

we were isolated,

spun too far out.

 

it had to come apart.

 

and when i touched others,

the more my nucleus shriveled down,

far beneath those illimitable spells

which cherished you.

 

 

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