Monday, February 27, 2023

Poem: Bridge (warning: triggering poem)

 Bridge


more tired than anytime,

unable to excuse my hate,

i stood at the vertical crossroads,

and uncaged the demons 

that tormented me for no other reason 

than to curse my conscience:

the paradox of a love that faltered

in the grip of its own pain.

 

life's illusion had been good,

vanity's masquerade,

the pleasures of sated wolves.

but the truth, it was different. 

the truth, it was rabbits.

and rabbits, it was true,

existed only because their ancestors

sometimes dodged jaws.

 

the people i had seen everyday,

did not know what they were,

but had decided they were not base.

they had forgotten, most of all,

if they had trapped themselves

without intending to dig the trench.


especially i couldn’t trust

the most convincing smiles.


it was true, though, that monsters 

always swore they did nothing wrong,

such as the one who claimed loved  

and raped and raped and raped.


the wealthy abused the poor, the Earth,

and whatever else they could gobble

while praising each others'

generous, wonderful hearts.


i had seen well enough 

how beauty was precious, yes,

but liars stole that light,

and then used it to beguile the innocent,

because, because, because

they wanted safety in gold 

as much as no one had the courage

to speak up.

 

only a few angels had the will

to look around and see how corrupt it all was,

the gilded glamourous glow of the evil towers,

and possess the wings not to jump.

 




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5/2/ 24


3/19 significant changes to body of poem

3/4  "crossroads" replaces "cross-roads" [sic]

Thursday, February 23, 2023

Poem: Doors

 

Doors

 

more mouth than entryway,

these doors taste whatever comes through.

 

doors more lonely than a library has pages.

hungry mirrors of each other,

positioned to kiss.

 

one door excites another

until they fall into a room

within a whirlwind of shocks.

 

when sated from all the hurt and bliss

the doors flow easy,

giddy to drift in an odd museum:

 

smitten sculptures,

arrows through their hearts.

 

the arrows point to more arrows,

arteries and journeys

and many more signposts,


until it all resolves 

at the same destination.




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5/7/24 ... 


3/21 "and drift" replaces "and i drift"

3/13 ... sculptural mods


3/3   "toward" replaces "at" ... 

2/6 ... really hard poem ... I tried... 

2/6 "doors" replaces "signposts" ... "come" replaces "collide"

 2/23 .. titled changed to "Doors" from "Mind Doors"

Sunday, February 19, 2023

Poem: What Interview

What Interview


i wrote something great,

which took me years

to sprinkle on the page. 

 

after a few bouts of hope

i knew i was going to die like this.

my crowning moment

 

would mean nothing, say nothing,

uncopied, unused

by any other mind.

 

should i have volunteered

to help starving children instead?

i sat in a room, day after day,

 

and no one listened,

my success languished,

burning bright in an empty corner,

 

warming no one,

hotter and hotter,

eager for Hades.




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Thursday, February 16, 2023

Poem: Perspective

 

Perspective

 

termites don’t woo wolves.

a humpback whale

can’t jackknife with worms

in the muck.

 

azotobacters, even,

in hierachies of rot,

make their stand.

traces of apatosaurs 

scream in petroleum.

 

no beetle speaks

salamander speaks chub. 

an eon for an organelle

whispers midnight to a raven.

 

angels envy songbirds,

or even humans, sometimes,

moved by the variations on loneliness

in the notes.



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8/11 ... more edits ... lots

2/17  ... "whispers midnight to" replaces "means midnight for" ... "the variations" replaces "variations"

Monday, February 13, 2023

Poem: Cyber

 

Cyber

 

romance is not intimate,

intimacy is not touch.

my finger seeks the center of a screen,

its fake fulsome stare,

glow of the ethereal real.


my spine, neck, arms, face

propped and pert as ninepins,

alert as the pixel-pixie simulacrum,

avatar in photons, young and busty,

how she struts,

pandering to orgasm-lite.

 

outside, in the world, somewhere or other,

Earth’s fearful tides of swift implication, 

brute vicissitude, and mighty ignorance

rave on.





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5/8/24 ...

Tuesday, February 7, 2023

Poem: Dying, Hears Thrush

 

Dying, Hears Thrush

 

mild lute, mellifluous 

of peace-tuned arpeggio.

 

sorcery of sonata dispels grids, 

street lattices, rectangular crypts.

 

luscious of lulalby, nuanced of note,

this fingerboard of throat--

 

yes, a warbler!


each luscious resonance to reminisce.

what purity of sound!


these inlays of notes, my body uplifted

by such dulcet, jewelled sighs,

 

and i now see why now

trees cherish such songs,


as i melt into delight,

this primal, sensuous immersion.





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5/8/24 ... 

5/17 cosmetic changes 

4/20 tons of changes

3/3 changed some prepositions ... 


Foot hurts, can't walk.  Might as well write what I wish.

Monday, February 6, 2023

Poem: Restless

 

Restless

 

hungry ladder of ribs

not guarding a name,

climbing itself

to rummage where arteries once thrived

 and scrounge for fossils:


a fragment of lover,

a figment of fond past,

a wisp of caress.

 

breezes breache the skull 

and it remembers a time when two people  

wonderfully misbehaved.


but the wind kicks up 

into whiffles and gusts 

which whistle to scurry and chase in circles,

 

and then it all scatters, nothing to hold onto,

inside the whispery, cracked, chalky pottery

of a vanished face.

 



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5/8/24 ... 

2/9  "slept" replaces "once slept" ... "matters" replaces "matters now"

2/7  "past" replaces "gone" ... "crumble" replaces "last crumb"  (the sound of a single word can wreck the whole thing, just like in music) ... "vanished" replaces "lost" 

2/6 ... "time" replaces "place" 





Friday, February 3, 2023

Poem: Comparison

 

Comparison

 

the blush

of phoenix burning blights?

 

of a grasshopper

that dons a checkerspot’s cape?

 

of nacre-hued winged swarm,

glint-greased in a revel of sun?

 

can you?

 

swans that expound silent

on a silk-blue lake?

 

an owl who questions,

covert as the creole of meadowlarks?


will you?


no schooner more magical

than a porpoise.

 

each eagle astral, supernal, laudable,

not a jet plane.


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5/20/24 ...



Coldest it's been in four decades here in Maine, gusts to -50F, on this 23rd anniversary of my brother's death.